Masocist???

Am I a masocist? (NO I don't do it for sexual gratification but I know I am going to just get all upset and do it anyways...) I am referring to reading this one blog.

http://weblogs.baltimoresun.com/features/mutts/blog/

It's about animals in Baltimore and sadly, the majority of the posts are sad. This in turn makes me cry, have nightmares and lose sleep. :(

I really need to just stop reading this blog.

PS. How can anyone hurt a defenseless animal?

My personal feeling is if you hurt or kill someone or something (something being an animal) BAM, you should get the same action done to you! Not in 6 months, not in 6 years NOW!

Lucy's Patellas don't Luxate no more!

As many know, Lucy had Luxating Patellas.

Definition: A luxating patella is a knee cap which moves out of the groove in the femur.

Here is a play by play of everything that has happened.

She got her surgery on December 3rd. I dropped her off at 7:30am and was to hear from the doctor after the surgery which was scheduled for 11am. She got both legs operated on because 1. instead of two separate surgeries and 12 weeks of recovery it's only 6. 2. It was 1K cheaper.

I was a nervous wreck all day, of course fearing the worst. I heard from the doctor around 1:30pm telling me everything went as planned and she was in recovery.

Originally, I was told she would be kept until Saturday morning but when I dropped her off I was informed that 50% of dogs go home the next day and 50% do stay two nights. On Thursday, when I talked to the vet he said to call back friday mid morning to find out when I could pick her up. I barely slept Thursday night because I missed my girl and kept imagining she was alone in a cage... I know, moving on.

On Friday, December 4th I called the CVRC (surgery place) at 10am and was told she was doing great and could pick her up today! I hadn't taken off at the gym but I told them I'd be there at 3!

Anyways, my mom and I picked her up (Jerms was driving home from Virginia.) We got a huge list of things to do and not do as well as three different medicines to give her at three different times of the day. She has staples in her legs and stitches down her head. (I got a mass removed from the crown of her head) The poor pup has the worst haircut ever! She looks like she has male pattern baldness and her entire back end is bald.

Insert sad dog pic here:

Anyways, that night was horrible! Absolutely no weight on her legs which meant holding the entire night. This gets kinda gross but she couldn't really hold her bowels. Nothing explosive but she'd start whimpering and moving around because she knew she wasn't supposed to go in the house. Momma had a playpen that she slept in, right next to my side of the bed. I'm a really light sleeper, meaning I woke up every time she took a deep breath. It was a very long night.

Saturday, December 5th was rough. She was still having bowel issues but I did get her to go pee on a puppy pad. For me this was a huge accomplishment because she had been whimpering, struggling and moving around for 10 minutes, trying to get me to take her outside. I never liked the idea of puppy pads and she wasn't trained with them but I am so thankful for them now! After this she started showing really good signs of feeling better, eating, drinking and being alert; unlike the night before. I started her leg exercises with her which I absolutely hate! I have to bend her leg in until she reacts and back out. Saturday night was no fun. The medicine must have constipated her and but she did end up going outside. I used a sling to hold up her back legs. This part is really gross but it happened... anyways, her rear end got reallllly chapped and almost diaper-rashy. If this happens to anyone I suggest using vaseline on the area and not vitamin E. We used vitamin E first and it didn't help. The area kept getting redder and more tender. Overnight we switched to vaseline and woke the next morning with the area looking 75% better and she showed no sensitivity back there.

That brings us to Sunday, December 6th. Lucy woke up around 8am which means I woke up as well. I took her outside still using the towel as a sling. She went outside and peed and pooped, just like her normal routine!! She has really showed great progress and good signs of healing! This is good news but all the while, means I have to watch her and really restrict her for the next 6 weeks. No jumping, running over exerting herself or else the pins could slip and she would need the surgery all over again! I'll keep updating.

*I wrote this mostly because the blogs on Luxating Patellas and forums on it don't explain what really goes down in the first couple days after surgery, just that it is very demanding on the owner and rough on the dog. I had no idea. I really don't know how people who full time jobs, kids, no help handle this type of surgery!

Thankful for so much

Happy Thanksgiving!

I am currently watching the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade, BK is in the kitchen chopping celery for the (amazing) oyster stuffing, DK is in his chair reading the newspaper and Jerms is downstairs watching the parade on his TV.

I have the prettiest little dog looking up at me.

I have some updates:

My car. What a pain! Let's see, a bunch of stuff was done wrong. My insurance adjuster said go get your car from the auto-body shop, I did. I found some serious things that were wrong (bare metal showing, window grinding, dirt in the paint, clear coat runs etc.) I call my adjuster, he said to take it to another body shop and get an estimate to fix the damage; I did. The new body shop found things that I didn't see and ended up giving me an estimate of $1,500 just to fix the other places mistakes. I called my adjuster, he said I had to take it up with the original shop! I was shocked! I called my insurance company, they went over my adjusters head. This part makes me mad though; I have to take my car back to the original body shop and give them a chance to fix the mistakes. I really, really, really, don't want to do that! I don't trust them with my car! They had it for 2 months (only supposed to have it for 10 days.) and caused more damage then did any good!

Frustrating right?

My Lucy. I scheduled her follow-up exam for her knees on December 2nd and her surgery will be on December 3rd. I'm am very nervous and scared for my girl. I hate the fact that I have to leave her at the vet hospital for 2 days. They said I can go visit on the second day.

Anyways, I got her groomed because the surgery will put her out of commission for 6 weeks. She looks really silly, her ears are cut sooo short and choppy. She smells really good though and is super soft!

I'm looking forward to see my fam today! We are going down Mawmaw's for dinner which is always delicious!! I am VERY excited for Sunday! 1. Dinner & visiting Jerms fam. and 2. Ravens/ Steelers game, I hope everybody heals! (Ray, Suggs, Reed, Palomino, Roethlisberger) I want to win against their aces using our aces! I am pretty excited because I got a shirt like 6 months ago to wear on Sunday! I'll just say "You bet your sweet ass I hate the Steelers!"

Car drama

I'm am so upset that I want to cry. Whenever I get in an "intense" discussion or heated argument; my eyes well up. It's just a nervous, anxious cry though, not a sad cry. Most of the time I can fight the water works but I'm seriously mad now.

Back Story: In August I went to KDub (BK & DK's office in the dena) and a huge storm rolled in. A tree branch fell from a massive tree that I was of course, parked under. It hit my roof and what seems like every other panel on my car.

G35 Injuries: Large dent in my roof affected my sirius antenna, large dent in the panel next to the drivers side door, small dent in drivers side door, chips in drivers side door & handle, chip in front windshield, trunk & wing, scratches in sun roof & passenger door and a chip in the passenger side window. Like I said, chips and scratches in almost every panel of my car!

Anyways, going through the auto body place they appraised it at $3,800 and my insurance company $4,000. That was replacing and painting (almost) everything!

Dropped off my beloved G35 on October 7th, picked up rental car 1 (Avenger). Avenger was a piece of shit! The oil needed changing (red flashing light on dash,) wipers didn't work, brakes were going out, steering was going out... exchanged for a Pontiac G6. Also, a turd. whatever.

Rental was due back October 22 but my car wasn't ready. They extended the rental until the 26th because that was when my car was supposed to be ready. Call the auto body shop, cars not ready because the tints not dry and they can't put the door panels on but it will be ready tomorrow in the AM. I drop the rental off because I hate it and will get my car in the AM, SIKE! Cars still not ready. Next day, they find a scratch in the passenger window that they didn't see until after it got tinted. Next day, my glass doesn't come in until MONDAY, November 2nd but I can pick my car up and have it for the weekend and drop it off Monday morning. Go to pick my car up (of course after 5pm) only to find:

Drivers side window doesn't go up all the way and the window is completely separate from the door.

They were to replace my wind sheild, drivers door window, passenger window and 2 small windows, they did but now there is a 2.5"x 4" logo of the glass company engraved in each window! They are so obnoxious looking! WHY would they have that put in when I didn't have it there before? I didn't authorize that! The lady said "Well it's a different glass company, not infiniti glass." I PAID FOR INFINITI GLASS, GIVE ME INFINITI GLASS!

The passenger side door handle has a huge chip in it that wasn't there before!

The black strip over my back window is cut too short and sticks out like 1 inch! The rain strip is too short and water would get in my trunk. PLUS, from where they set it in the shop, there's scratches all in the glass.

The hood wasn't even "buffed" out like he said.

The car is DIRTY! There was bird poop on it. Shouldn't the car be clean if they just fixed it?

The worst is the bumper. The front bumper has fresh chips (like 30+) in it like someone ran up on a curb or sidewalk. This is new! I ran my hand over it and chips came off in my hand.

These are just the things I noticed in a 5 minute review of my car.

:(

Lucy News

I do have some bad news...

From time to time when Lucy is running around and sometimes even walking, her back legs collapse on her. She then straightens her leg almost as if she has a cramp in it. Being the over protective, obsessive mother that I am; I took her to the vet.

Well she has Luxating Patella in both her back legs, her right leg is worse off. Basically her knee caps don't stay in place and go out of alignment. This is a common aliment in small dogs that usually occurs with no pain; sadly, Lucy feels pain. Of course to fix this problem, requires an expensive, painful and demanding surgery. I was told that if we don't get the surgery, the disorder will get worse and she will have problems walking.

She's only 7 months old; I feel so bad. I have been looking into alternative, more natural ways to correct her condition.

Unfortunately, this is a genetic condition and her mother should not have been bred. I feel like a hypocrite saying that because if that would have occurred, I wouldn't have my Lucy.

Anyways, I'll keep ya'll updated on the status of my girl.

Cutest Dog Competition

No little Lucys running around

I took Lucy to the vet today to get spayed. As much as I want a house full of Lucys running around, I don't want to be that crazy cat.. err dog lady. I definitely teared up driving home. I just feel guilty because she doesn't know what's going on and I feel bad. The vet did just call to say she is out of the surgery and is fine. She said she was awake but really drunk, like her mother. j/k she didn't say that last part. :)

I've been thinking lately... I really want to live on the beach/ island. I could do what I do from anywhere there is an internet connection... Jeremy not so much. He could always visit :)

For now, I'll just daydream.

Roller Skating Babies

I love this commerical, good job Evian

TGIF

I love friday afternoons! Especially really pretty days like today!

In fact, i'm going to wrap this bad boy up and go play outside with my puppy.

I love her!

:)

Let the memory live again...

I am going to regret not laying in bed and forcing myself to sleep but oh well.

Friday, my mom took the cats to the vet and had them put down. I'm not as heartless as my previous post stated because I'm pretty sad, I loved my Paula cat, a lot. I completely understand the putting down part because she wasn't comfortable; I'm just sad it had to occur in the first place. She was my cat, she loved me and pretty much only me. It's times like now, when I miss her the most because she'd be chilling by my side.

I feel kinda silly because she's a cat but come on, ones pet is often times loved more then people. At least, I loved my cat more then a lot of people I know. Animals love you unconditionally.

I think it hits a nerve because the cats were around when Bob was and Evan. It's just another "in my face reminder," that I've lost so many things that were important.

I miss my brother. I hate that this happened. It's been a little over 5 years, I don't know how I am going to go the rest of my life without him in it. July 9th would have been his 34th birthday. I miss him.

I have so much on plate, I sometimes can't see straight. Work is insane. I have a bazillion things to do, #1 labels followed by art designs, promos, paperwork, organizing, returning phone calls, following up on emails, photos... more shit I can't remember it all. I'm also now, assisting in sales.

On top of that, the former "F head" partners won't go away. Isn't it enough that they stole over a million dollars from us, tired to steal the plant, sold all the shit they could but now they are suing us. Our legal system is a crock of shit! The fact that people like this exist IS what is wrong with the world today.

Back to my plate...

I taught myself Adobe but I want "official" schooling so I can use "correct" terminology and the "correct, step by step," procedures. There's two, two week classes for 1,000 hours I signed up for, they start in August. Yay.

The cat issue, work being insane, classes, the BS with Jeremy... There is just not enough time in the day.

We had a small cookout with an insane amount of fireworks on the 4th. It was one of the best parties we've ever had! I spent most of the party with my girl Pammy.

I don't think I'm a very good friend. I don't think I ever have been and that's why I have so few. I don't like talking on the phone and I don't try to connect or stay connected with people. I never really express my thoughts, I typically express what I think people want to hear... I don't know if that's true or what that means. It's late, forgive my nonsense.

I've only been close to one person, on a friend level, Evan. He's on my mind because Pammy and I were talking about our first kiss. He was mine. Nothing can beat this; New Years Eve 2000-2001, 12:01am in Annapolis under fireworks. It was one for the storybooks.

I'm leaving ya with a picture of Paula, I miss her.

This post is all over the place but so am I.

Not feeling so Friskie

I'm pretty sure we are putting the cats down today. Depressing right? They both have been getting sick lately. Paula is a diabetic, not cleaning herself, losing weight and now is having accidents. Ali has lost so much weight and both their qualities of life are miserable. My mom and I agree to put them down together because we got them together, they've always been together and both of them are in declining health. I brought this up because of a discussion Jeremy and I had the other day...

He said he doesn't want his negative personality to rub off on me, but it is. I feel like I am becoming a "hard" person. I'm not as sympathetic as I used to be, nor do I really care about many things or many people.

I am sad about the cats but unlike in the past, I'm not crying and I just feel like, "it is what it is."

I love my family more then anything. I would walk through fire and back for them. I have a handful (and when I say handful, I mean a very few) of good friends. I love the business and that's about it. So the below comment excludes the mentioned above.

I have been burnt and lost a lot of close relationships in my life. I truly feel like I would just prefer to be alone. I don't really like talking to people anymore; really, listening to other people bitch. I have my own shit going on and don't feel like being bothered by someone else's nonsense. On top of that, I don't feel like telling anyone about my life. It's none of your business.

I woke up in such a good mood but thanks to captain asshole, that changed.

Such is life.

C'est la vie

This post is going to be a bit all over the place because that is how I am feeling today...

I have a doctors appointment in a bit. I have had an earache and sore throat for about a week now. I absolutely do not want to be sick for Cedar Point so I am going to the doctor, which I hate!

Jerms, Dave, Brandi and I are going to Cedar Point, Cleveland Zoo, Rock & Roll Hall of Fame... you could say a long road trip. I am so so excited!!!

Yesterday I made some bomb ass banana bread! It's so good! (I'm eating a piece now)

I've decided to start my own company. I suppose you can say that desire runs in my family. I'll tell you more as details unfold!

I love my Lucy so much (she just walked over and is now chilling on my lap.)

I really want a vacation... a life vacation. It would be so awesome to win the lottery. :)

Alrighty my throat hurts, I have shit to do and places to go. Blah

It's kinda funny now...

Yesterday I was waiting for Jeremy to come pick me up at the house, so we could drive to the plant. My mom was upstairs and I was on the middle floor. (Note, Lucy can go up stairs but not down.) All of a sudden I heard all this ruckus and banging down the stairs; followed by my mom yell "PAULA," then sorta yell/pleading voice "LUCY." My heart sank because it was Lucy falling down the steps. Well I bolted to the steps as she rolled on the landing pad and as Paula took off running, from behind her. I immediately scooped her into my arms and held her. She was sooo scared!

Well the conclusion was Lucy went to sniff Paula and Paula pushed her down the steps!

Can't we all just get along?

Seasons Change, People Change

I haven't written a blog in forever, I have drafted them but deleted them instead of posting. I got too personal. (Goodness, I never know what to write, seeing that I just deleted like 4 paragraphs and am again starting fresh... wonder if this will get posted.)

This weekend was busy and I have been looking forward to it for awhile. Jason and Melissa got married on Saturday in Hagerstown. This may come as a shock but I'm not a fan of Weddings... but this one was really beautiful and it was so cute how they looked at each other and were a bit goofy during the ceremony. They are perfect for each other. 

Of course, I drank wayyy too much because I was a bit upset (like Alcohol is ever the right combo with being upset.) I feel that I will never get married (nor do I want to, anymore.) I didn't even get up to catch the bouquet. So yeah, "that shitty attitude" and too much wine= a meltdown. Thank god I did it in my car and only a select handful saw me. 

Anyways, that was a mess but Sunday we drove home (everyone stayed at a hotel.) We stopped at Nino Taco, off 695. That used to be where I would meet Jeremy during his lunch and my school break. We came home and went on the boat all day. It was beautiful! Lucy went swimming for the second time. She loved it but she has been so bad lately! She no longer listens to the command; Lucy Come (as if she really ever did.) She runs like a little beast into my neighbors yard and the one next to theirs. Then she wants to play the "chase me" game. I want to beat her little ass sometimes. Grrr... but I can't be mad at her as she is sound asleep right next to me. I love her.

Welp, Time for sleep! Plant tomorrow.

OHHHH PS, we were of course late for the ceremony because I am late for everything! Who knew it took 1hr30mins to get to Hagerstown?? Well it didn't really take that long, Jeremy drove triple digits (in my car) while I shit my dress (can't say pants cause I wore a dress,duh.) He cut 29 minutes off our commute and we walked in at 3:05, the wedding started at 3. We caught up to a red XLR (sexy ass car) half way there that happened to be a Wedding guest also running late. We stuck together on the road the whole time, made for a nice conversation piece. :) 

I miss my friend

I get hit with two tragic anniversaries back to back; March 14th, my brother and today, my best friend. I don't talk about him but that doesn't mean I don't think about him. 

His name was Evan and he was my best friend. Today makes it 8 years since he passed away. I could not even begin to describe what an amazing, kind hearted, unique person he was. I have never and will never have a friendship with anyone like ours was, ever again.

I was the luckiest person to consider him and him consider me his best friend. 

Knowing him made me a better person.

I'd like you to meet Lucy.

After much anticipation, I'd like to introduce Lucy.

Here are some details about my little girl.

Little Lucy is a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel and her birthday is January 21, 2009. She weights 3.5lbs (says her vet Dr.Rines at Severn River Animal Hospital,) and is from Missouri.

The Story.

We got her on Sunday, April 19, 2009 from Today's Pet in Columbia Mall. I have been wanting a dog for over a year now but with Harley being sick and then passing away, it never felt right to get one. He was such a great dog and meant so much to us, it was an uncomfortable situation. Harley died on November 1, 2008; so it's been some time and on Saturday I went to my mom and talked to her about the dog topic. Being my mom, she just rolled her eyes at me; Hey at least I didn't get a NO, like before! I have looked at sooo many types of dogs in the past; Dalmation, English Bull Dog, Pug, Boston Terrier, Akita, Labs... etc, etc, etc, but never liked one type. Jeremy and I woke up on Sunday and went to breakfast at Bob Evans (not my favorite place.) I told Jeremy how my mom seemed "ok" with the idea of me getting a dog. To my surprise he said, "Let's go to the pet store." I love going to the pet store and have went like 100 times but never once did I feel a connection to one dog that made me think, I want this dog! I kept saying, "I'm not getting a dog today, especially from Today's Pet! I just want to play with a bull dog." That is until I walked into the store, and saw a King Charles Cavalier Spaniel, I looked at Jeremy and said it's probably a boy, ew. Brandon (the guy who worked there) walked by and I said "is that a girl or boy King Charles," he said, "uhhh it's a little girl." I looked at Jeremy again and said "can I see her?" Brandon put us in a room and from the moment he handed her to me, I was done! She has the best little personality and is so sweet, I knew she was ours!

Now after two days of much much much debate over a name, we decided last night, she is our Lucy! Jerms and I both love the beetles and little did he know, Britney Spears' character in Crossroads was named Lucy, muhaha! :)

Thats the story of how Lucy joined our family!

Happy Easter Mester!

(This blog post is all over the place)

I love Easter! It's the start of my favorite time of year. Everything is in bloom, the weather is changing, time for tanning and boating, I can't wait for Summer! Even if that means the dreaded allergies but oh well. I'll start with today;

Woke up and scoped out all the yummy candy the Easter bunny left me. That Easter bunny has really good taste! Decorated some cute (and delicious) Easter bunny funfetti cupcakes, see Erins Edibles for pictures. Of course we were late for Jerms fam. I swear, I will be late for my own funeral; I do not know why I am late for everything! Jerms and I don't get to go over his parents that much but when we do I absolutely love it! So many things over there are so much fun; The board games, the activities, the conversations, the company... it's just an all and all great time! Around 4:15 Jerms and I headed to Mawmaw's. Again, we were late for dinner there but it was ok we ate at the Martin's, but I did have seconds... and a giant piece of chocolate delight. Hey, Aunt Carol made it especially for me! We missed the kids Easter egg hunt but we had o.... WAIT, I forgot (I don't know how) to mention the Hunt at the Martins. WELLLLL, considering I have ice packs on both of my busted up knees THANKS CHARLES but I'm glad you got to keep your balance at my expense. Needless to say, I got that egg. j/k Charles, I only have one icepack on one knee. ;) Anways, we had fun down Mawmaw's too. I don't know why both Easter Egg hunts this year got really physical. My cousin Michael, who is as tall as me and probably weighs more tackled me but I got him in a sleeper hold... barely, he is a strong kid. Next year, he is totally going to be able to kick my butt! Yup, the weather was beautiful and this Easter was a blast! I posted below a few of my favorite pictures from today... more on facebook & webshots, of course :)

Pic 1. 5 Deviled Eggs, Perhaps that's why he spent 45 minutes in the bathroom???
Pic 2. Hannah & Ben going after the same Easter Egg.

Pic 3. Jerm running out the door at Mawmaw's after some Easter Eggs.
Pic 4. A stare down during the Easter Egg hunt.
Pic 5. Michael and Tucker.

Saturday started out bad but ended good.

My 2 1/2 year old bad ass HP laptop, died. I was working on it for 2 hours, took a shower, went to use it again and bam, it's fried. It sucks because I do everything on that laptop. I have all my artwork saved on an external drive but all my software (adobe mostly) is for PC and now I am getting a mac. I currently have another tab open ordering a mac book pro! I'm excited for it, I just really can't afford it right now, which blows. I guess that's what a credit card is for.

Later that night, The folks, Jerms and I went to Rob's (The plant manager and good family friend) wife Rosas birthday party. Rosa is hispanic and so was 80% of the people there, 75% of which did not speak english. No big deal, I know some spanish, Jerms knows a little more then me and DK is pretty fluent in it. BK knows none. :) The evening was actually so much fun, they had some banging ass food, and super fun everything else.

This weekend was a blast!

2x Tuesday

Today is 2x Tuesday which is one of my favorites during the week... We order pizza here at the plant and it is really good. :) Wow, that sounds lame and fat kidish.
I have a 10k mailer going out that I am creatively blocked on... I need to design it and actually make it while designing labels and all the other stuff I do around here. I want to find a graphic artist that is seriously bad ass at what they can do. Know someone?
This is all for now. Boring day!

Welcome to my Bitchfest

I can barely keep my eyes open today. It's not a lack of sleep, lack of caffeine (or junk food), not boredom, not sick... I am just plain ass tired for some ungodly reason!
I am going to bitch for a few:
I was really looking forward to this weekend.
Saturday I had Erin O's Moveable Feast charity event. Erin O is just an all around good person, I love being around her because her fun and happy personality is contagious. Plus, she is a outstanding singer and performer and I would never miss a chance to see her perform! I had a lot of fun with my momma, grandmother, aunt, cousin and my moms friend. I won Edward Arthur Murray dance lessons, hehe. After that, I went to the gym for the general managers surprise 50th day party. I love SPRFC and everyone there! Jeremy was supposed to go with me but because he got stuck at work then stayed home drinking and playing pool with my neighbor he blew me off. Yes I am bitter about that. Hence an argument ensued and carried over to the next day...
Sunday Mikey, Melissa, Jerms and I went to DC to check out some cherry blossoms. I have been looking forward to going since we made the plans over a week before. I felt fine when I woke up, no sneezing, running nose, eye issues, throat... etc you catch my drift. Of course Jeremy was a complete ass hole and ruined the day for me from moment one when he woke up. I know that is harsh and revealing to post "in a blog," but it's true and if he doesn't want the "world" to read it, he shouldn't act that way. He really hurt my feelings because it was something I had been looking forward to. We argued before M&M picked us up, didn't say more then 10 words to each other during the day and then really argued when we got home (after my nap.) When we were in DC I picked up a blossom that was laying on the ground, bad idea. I don't know if I touched my eye or it just seeped in my pores but I started to feel like butt! First the nose started, then I couldn't keep my eyes open especially my right eye, I felt exhausted and a headache followed. Of course DC traffic was a bitch to get through! I was kinda bummed we didn't get to go to this farmers market but I felt crappy and I was hating Jeremy and just wanted to go home. I took some cool pictures and so did Melissa. I wish I could have had more time to really "explore DC," but maybe another day.
I went home and passssed out! Woke up, Jeremy and I argued like woah, ate dinner and junk, watched some of the CMA's and went back to bed.
Today I had to get here (the plant) relatively early because the receptionist had tickets to opening day. I have so much stuff to do and absolutely no motivation to do it. I hate making labels that are ugly, it makes me insane! (Side note that occurred while I was proof-reading. The ugly label I made, the customer approved and loved... ick) Also, I have eaten so bad today; 2 boston cream donuts, a venti vanilla latte with whip and caramel sauce and an orange fanta... OK AND 1/8th of Jeremys glazed donut AH! With all that sugar, why am I not bouncing off the walls?
The power kept flashing here at the plant, that means poor Rob has to restart the line. :(
Welp, time to do something productive...
OHHH P.S. I saw pictures from Yesterday and Saturday and I look like shit! I am so washed out looking and frizzed out hairish, I can't even see straight. Blah, I need to go tanning!

"What should the title of my blog be?"- E "Friday night,"-J... real Original Jerms

I just deleted a really long blog... I talk about the same shit. I love my job, Jeremy, I miss my bro, I love my job... next topic please!
This is the best time of year! I have my windows open and I can hear the sailboats bell and the water rolling around outside... JEREMY just closed the windows hahaa. I said "why are you closing them?" He said, "I am cold!" Random and perfectly timed to burst my bubble, haha.
Erin O has a charity event tomorrow and Jerms and I went over her house to drop off some H2o for her. We got to hang out with them for a few hours and I really had a blast. Zoey girl is probably the best baby ever! She doesn't cry, she plays and laughs and is so freaking cute! There is only about 5 kids I like and she is definately one! What can I say, I'm more of a cat person...
Ok I want to mention work because I am totally excited about something... I am doing a mailing campaign, with this badass flyer! I will scan it (when it's done) just to show how bad ass it is! I am super excited!
What am I really supposed to type talk in blogs? I don't "really" say what I'm thinking and most of the time I type something up and delete it. So tell me now, what should I type?

This week is over, already?

I have never had a week go by so fast! I blinked on Monday and BAM it's Friday!
I have no idea what to write? I've been staring at the screen (and watching judge judy) for approximately 10 minutes and nothing has come to me... hmmm, I think I could go for some cereal. :)
PS. The time on my blogs are so wrong. It's 5:25pm, not 2:19pm.

5:55pm on Saturday

Last night Jerms, Dave, Brandy and I went to the Melting Pot in Annapolis. Well my rating on the food is a -10, sooo bad! I had fun because of who I was with but we could have had the same fun and enjoyed the food more at McDonalds! The only good part of the meal was the dessert. A big pot of melted chocolate with yummy little treats to dip it in, yummmmy! But seriously, I can buy the little melty chocolates and treats from Safeway... I was pretty bummed that the food sucked so bad because I really wanted to like it. Scratch Melting Pot off my list, it now resides on the Ew, I'm never going back there list, along with Applebees. After dinner we came home and drank... of course.
Had to get up early today (haha, 9am) for Ben's 6th birthday party at Chuck E. Cheese. I have been looking forward to this since we got the invite!
1. It's Chuck E. Cheese, where a kid can be a kid! and I was! (Side story: Some kid came up while I was playing skeeball and tried to take/throw a ball down my isle. I said, "That's not yours," and took the ball from him. Hey, he would have ruined my score!)
2. We get to hang out with Danielle and Will, that's always a blast!
3. Hannah and Ben are cool kids, except for Bens horrible football taste and desire to wear the ugliest jacket ever!
4. Possibly why I was so excited, SKEEBALL! Jeremy and I are seriously addicted to our iPhones, thanks to Skeeball lite! Jeremy has top score on my phone 800, I have top score on his phone 710. I love Skeeball and am now in a mad search to find an actual giant sized skeeball machine! Wanna help in my search?
I have more to type but I really want to eat a bowl of fruity pebbles... hehe

March 14, 2009

It's been 5 years since my brother died.
It feels like yesterday that he was still here and it breaks my heart that he's not.

The second picture (Owings Mills Portrait), he absolutely hated! He thought it was so "gay" that he had to pose with his sister like that. In 2002, we got portrait photos taken for my mom and I made him recreate that picture. He hated it that time too.
I miss him so much.

Kinda gross...

I had a moon pie in my desk from earlier this week that I have been picking at all day, it's been good. Finally I decided to get something "real" to eat... I made chef boyardee lasagna, a del monte fruit cocktail cup and a big bottle of nesquik chocolate milk and I ate them all at once. I used the same spoon for the CBLasanga and fruit cocktail, that was kinda ewwy because they tasted like each other... I'm just tired and didn't feel like wasting another spoon. I am really very sleepy and I'm dreading the hour and a half drive home. Jerms is out selling today with Shane so I am flying solo. He has been such a shit lately, I have been enjoying the alone time!
Subject change.
I have no clothes. People don't believe me because they've seen my closet but I really don't! I need a more professional attire that actually fits me, unlike everything I have... I just don't have time and when I do, I don't want to go shopping. And on top of my laziness, nothing fits me right because I'm a freak. ha
Subject chance.
We have a trade show this weekend and I'm pretty excited, not right this minute but in general I am. I designed the booth (sorta kinda) but overall it's my project and we are handing out my 100% designed labels that look awesome!
Subject change.
My man Ray signed with the Ravens yesterday. Can we say how happy that made/makes me? In my heart, I knew he wasn't (couldn't) leave bmore. I am bummed we didn't keep Scott, I liked him. However, I am veryyy bummed Leonard went to the Jets. I reallllly REALLY liked him. Bummer.
SC.
The 5 year mark of my bro dying is coming up on the 14th. I have been missing him so much lately. I would give anything for that to have never happened. Things would be so different if he were still here, and better. Just with the company, family, friends, everything. It hurts just as much if not more then it did 5 years ago.
Labels to design, people to call, moon pies to be eaten, luego

MANIC MONDAY!

Today was the day from hell, sorta!
Last night I cleaned off my laptop... a little too well. I accidentally deleted office, Bad News! I didn't put it together that Office is Microsoft Office. I thought it was Quickbooks or something... Hey people make mistakes! Jeremy was up late trying to save my laptop and up early doing the same. Well around 8am-9am Jerms/me got it back up and working. Oh top of that stress in the morning, the Honda battery was dead. My moms jeeps hood doesn't stay up by itself (someone has to hold it), so without my knowledge, Jerms moves my car and jumps the Honda, then parks it.
WELL, he backed it in the parking pad which is rocks. Needless to say I go to leave and my car is stuck, the drivers side back tire digs down in the rocks... then in the sand. 20 minutes later, I am not going anywhere, in my car! Jeremy and Shane come home and try to help, but don't, he just digs it down a little deeper. An hour later the tow truck arrives and pulls me out. $80 for a 1 foot tow. Oh well, at least I was free to go to work, at 11:45 which meant for a long day!
I got to work, made a lot of progress, leads, designs done, overall it was a successful day AFTER I got to work!
Then, I came home (an hour later then I had hoped) and met the Fam down Mawmaws (Today was my Mawmaw's 81st Birthday. Happy Birthday Mawmaw!) for Birthday cake. Yummy, I love carvel Ice Cream Cakes!

Tomorrow I am driving alone again, Jerms and Shane are are working the streets.
Anyways, last night I had a blast at Jerms parents! I played Things (the rated R version) with Mr. Marty, Jerms, Amanda, Odette, Charles and Dani. I had a blast playing with the kids too! It reminds me of how not ready I am to have kids. I was exhausted after 20 minutes! Props to moms everywhere!
Time for bed.

Living is easy with eyes closed, misunderstanding all you see.

Time goes by so fast! I'm being seriously, for once.
My life is changing. I am taking on such an important role in the company, it's a shock. I am the graphic artist at ShoreGood. Jeremy and Shane (our new guy) are selling the shit out of our water. I can't really keep up. I have been working non-stop, for hours on end, for days! It's really stressful but at the same time I love it. Jeremy and I are there for hourrrs; I say that but I don't think you understand, HOURS! Example, Today got there at 8:30ish (that means we woke up at 6am, left at 6:45-7ish, ps. that means we were running late!) worked allllllll day, left the plant at 7ish, got home and keep working. I'm not complaining, I would be there earlier and later if I could.
As soon as I copyright a few things, I will post some of my creations!
These will be random:
I made chicken parmesan spaghetti last night and it is really good. Jeremy said that if I make my chicken parm everynight for the rest of our lives, he'd be ok with that. That made me happy.
Jeremy has a very important meeting tomorrow. He bought a suit and looks really hot in it.
There are maybe 3 good shows on TV and 2 very good shows. The rest are all crap!
Good: 1. Big Bang Theory, 2. Two & half men, 3. (I have nothing for #3)
Very Good: 1. The Office, 2. How I met your mother.
We will be in WV this weekend. Next weekend OC. Both for work.
Welp, I'm done... I want to paint my nails and go to bed before midnight for once!

My funny funny Valentine

Yesterday was Valentines day and it was a great day!
Jeremy and I had already decided not to buy each other "junk" presents. Since 1. My bday and Christmas were like 5 minutes ago and 2. Our anniversary is 1 week after Valentines day. (Our anniversary is a little more important then a made up holiday from hallmark.)
So of course I got him a present anyways... It was less then $15 and I would have got it even if it wasn't Valentines day. Anyways... we were at dinner a few weeks ago and he said he really liked that picture of Einstein with his tongue sticking out, I got that for him. I also got him a reese peanut butter shaped heart (They are his fav.)
Well I sent him an e-mail (Yes, I have to e-mail him even though he is 1 door down from me at work) saying I wanted to "Do Something" on Valentines day. I didn't care where, how, why, when... I just wanted to get away, his planning! Short story long, he took me to Lurary Caverns. It was a ton of fun, I took lot's of pictures and it was an overall great day!
I have a ton of other stories but nooooo time to write about them :(
It is a beautifullllll day and Jerms and I are going exploring.
The End.
PS. Happy Birthday Amanda

Sleepy Saturday

My dad has a family bible that was left to him from his mom. It really meant a lot to my dad because it was something that his mom and him would read, just the two of them. We ended up getting it a few years after she died, we've had it now for over 15 years! When we got it, it was falling apart. The bible has sat in a paper bag, in the closet for almost 10 years. It really was in such bad condition, no one wanted to look at it because of the fear of destroying it. For Christmas my mom said we should restore it for my dad. So I looked into it and found a guy in the city who does that kind of work. It was hella expensive but we did it. My mom and I picked it up today and I just got done looking through it. Check out the pictures at the bottom. The bible is mostly in black and white but it does have some color pictures. My favorite part is the births and deaths section (it's the next page after the second picture, below.) It was updated until the 1970's most of all the writing is in my grandmothers beautiful handwriting.

It's not the fact it's a bible that impresses me, it's the fact that it has been in my family for over 100 years. Also, I am so much like my grandmother. She was so creative, she painted, made ceramics... I could have learned so much from her. It's not fair that she died when I was just 3 years old, I didn't get to know her but life's not fair, I know that.

I can't wait for my dad to get home from work to see it!

It looks like I am going snowboarding tomorrow!!! I am sooo excited. No offense Jeremy, I am extra excited because Dani and Will are going! I always have a lot of fun when we get together with them, they add extra awesomeness to the adventure! I know I am going to take a ba-zillion pictures and I will for sure add them to my snapfish (yeah, I started using snapfish...) eh, it kinda sucks.

I got a lot of shit yesterday at the gym. Bob the GM and a horrible Steelers fan, gave me shit all day (don't worry I dished it out too) but so did the members! I wore my Ray Lewis jersey (PROUDLY) because I love my team! No, they didn't go to the Superbowl or win the division but I love them win or lose! Also, I have started to hate the Cowboys. Before I had respect for them because they were Jerms team, unless they played my boys, it wasn't a problem. It has become a problem for 2 reasons. 1. That bitch ass Jerry Jones requested the Ravens as the team to play in the last game in Texas Stadium. Why do you say? Well Jerry Jones thought his Cowboys could for sure win against the Ravens. Well obviously he was wrong! Maybe he should have requested to play the Lions. 2. It is RUMORED they will offer MY BELOVED Ray Lewis 25 million to play for the Cowboys. (Dearest Ray, Please don't leave Baltimore, Love Erin)

My momma made Cinnabon Cinnamon Streussel Cake and it is done and smells amazingggg, time to sneak a piece. :)

Yay!

Jeremy and I are stuck in a routine.
Monday-Thursday: Wake up early, drive to work, work, drive home, go to sleep.
Friday: Jerms works at the plant, EK at SPRFC. We normally don't do much on Friday nights... Hang out with friends... something like that.
Saturday: Jerms works at BB, EK usually sleeps in, cleans, runs errands etc.
Sunday: (used to watch football) Typically run errands, nothing exciting.
Today I was bitching because I am boreddd. So we decided to spice things up and use Sunday as our fun day. We are going to be doing fun new things every (most) Sundays.
I think this Sunday we are going snowboarding!!! I am so excited! I went skiing (if you can call it that) once when I was like 13. We (the fam) had all the equipment, we get to the resort and put all the crap on. I take 2 steps out of the lodge, fall over, take off my ski's and get back into the lodge. The End! Skiing trip for me, over!
Right now I am checking for ski resorts close by but I am really excited about this!
Wanna go with us?

Today sucks.

That's a picture of the Obama water that Jeremy sold and was on TV. Also please note the snow coming down outside the plant. It's coming down pretty hard now and is sticking to the ground... great.
I'm feeling pretty shitty today. Last night my boys lost to my most hated Steelers and to nurse my sadness last night, I drank! So I feel like butt today. I hate the Steelers so much. It's not that we lost, that happens, it's who we lost to. We had a great season, thank you Ravens for that but why did we have to lose to those bitches. Ick.
My friend Pammy came over last night. We were going to go to Owings Mills mall where the Ravens were meeting up with fans (at like 1am) but we ended up not going. No need to comment on this paragraph.
I am grumpy today... I know I've said that a few times but I really am.
On the way to work Jerms and I were talking about how I hold grudges. It really is something I can not control, it is part of my personality. When you wrong me and apologize, I don't accept it. I may say I do but I really don't. This is why I don't have a bunch of friends, which is fine by me.
I hate confrontations and I am about to have one. They make me uncomfortable and I would prefer to just ignore people.
I dropped my beloved Paula cat off at the vet this morning. They are going to monitor her and her sugar or insulin levels (or something), idk. I hate the fact we have to give her a shot everyday.
I am taking an illustrator class at AACC, it starts tomorrow night. I'm kinda excited about it. I hate just being idle. I want to keep learning new things. On top of learning (more in depth) illustrator, I am going to find an advanced digital photography class. Then I swear I will travel and take pictures. That has always been my dream.
Que Sera, Sera

Week Wrap Up

I am currently VERY excited because our water (Jeremy's sale) was just on abc 2 news! Obama Water! How bad ass is that?
The Jerms and I are back from Vegas. We had so much fun, together that is...
Our feelings towards some people have changed but I am not about to write about it in a blog, at least not right now. I will write about it eventually but the wound is to fresh and mostly anger would just come out.
The first day we were there (Saturday, Jan 17th) we saw my boys (The Baltimore Ravens) beat the Titans! It was amazing!! We watched the game at the Belligo and met some cool people. Let me say, I was the only person there in a Ravens Jersey (my Ed Reed one.) It's ok though, Jerms and I held our own! We were so happy the Ravens won and we celebrated accordingly! Later that night (and after may beers) we saw the Cirque du Soleil show, Love. It was also amazing! I must say that was the best day in Vegas!
Second day, we got breakfast with Jerms fam. Then we went to Toby Keith's bar to watch the Steelers sadly beat the Chargers. Ick, I hate the Steelers. Again, we met up with Jerms fam to grab dinner. Jerms and I went our separate ways, me with the girls Jerms with the boys. The girls went to TAO (a trendy restaurant) then to some clubs. We were treated like celebrities, I think the girls ended up getting at least 5 bottles of free vodka. (Thanks to Ashley we also got a $900 bottle of champagne free, I can't write how she got that. What happens in Vegas Stays in Vegas!) I'll let Jerms tell you what the boys did.. :)
Third day, Jerms and I went to the stratosphere. We took lot's of pictures and grabbed lunch. They had the best food and service in Vegas! I had to be back to the casino salon so they could charge me way too much money for something ugly, whatever. The wedding was at 5pm. After the wedding stuff, Jerms, Steph, Katie T and I went to O'sheas bar for $2 Millers. We ran into a Bachelor party where they bought all of us drinks(Jeremy too). It was an absolute blast!
Fourth Day, after a rough start Jerms and I went sightseeing. We ran into Ashley and Vince and they joined us. I think we walked over 10 miles! Later Sarah, Jerms and I went to Freemont Street and saw a topless Jubilee.
We flew home on the fifth day.
I left out a bunch of details, mostly because they are blurry (thanks to a lot of alcohol), peoples feelings, and really... it's none of your business!
I took so many pictures and today I went to Michael's and bought a scrapbook. Jeremy and I are going to spend one night putting it together. Although Vince said "Jeremy if you scrapbook, I won't be your friend." Oh well.
Time to watch How I Met Your Mother with my love.

I need to write a blog...

EHHH! I would really like to restart today over! If that were possible I would make these changes.
I would still have gone tanning at 10am, that was good.
I would have cancelled my hair appointment because like everytime I go, I don't like hair. This time I am going to be in a wedding on Monday (leaving for Vegas tomorrow) and now I am unhappy with my hair. WTF is up with these stupid little bangs that poke me right in my eye?
YOU know what else pisses me off, the fact that when I just wrote cancelled and everytime, the little red "hey your stupid line" showed up underneath the word. I clicked it and said it was spelled canceled. Hey word checker thing, you are wrong, NOT me!
I would also change the fact that I got the news from the vet my cat has diabetes (thank you spell checker for telling me how to spell that correctly.) As most know my dog Harley had diabetes and he is now dead. I spoil my Paula cat. I give her treats, yummy food and table scraps (not like all the time but sometimes... I guess the fact she has diabetes is 100% my fault by bribing her love.) So yeah, I have to take her yummy food from her, say no when she looks at me when I'm eating and her treats she gets when she is good! She is going to hate me. Because NOW I have to give her shitty health, diet food and 2 needles a day! I am very upset about this... Emotional breakdown number 3 of the day!
I have to go get a manicure & pedicure. With my luck, I am going to get some foot disease from the pan they soak your feet in and perhaps somehow I will also lose a finger! Hopefully not the middle... I use that one too much.
:( I am not happy.