Wednesday O Wednesday

Last night was interesting... I need to explain a small back story to make this story make sense.
When Sheehan and I went to FL at the end of September, we hung out with his old Boss/Owner of Jumpers Grille (Steve.) He owns an amazing restaurant in Dunedin (FL's hidden gem,) called Jollimons.
Anywayssss, while we were in FL we hung out with Steve and met a bunch of people. Well, I became friends with Steve on facebook and we've been chatting. He said he would be interested in starting a second restaurant and wanted to talk with Sheehan and I. Sheehan called Steve the other day and left a message. Steve called Sheehan last night and invited us to stay with him in FL and we could get talks going about finding a location and starting a second restaurant. Tentative talks I think he wants Sheehan to be the GM and me do the Promotions and anything else I want to do. Chef Kellough? Holy Moly. Steve was going to call a broker and get everything started.
So this happened last night. This morning I woke up to an email from my former favorite customer saying he hates that I'm not with BISM anymore and he is going to look for a new supplier. He is a one of our largest customers and if he left, it would hurt SGW, badly. BAM! The feelings of betrayal, sadness and guilt from leaving the water company come flooding back.
The water company has been the only thing I was ever good at. However, it cost me so much.
Why can't life be easy and written clearly. Why do I have to second-third-fourth-one millionth guess my decisions and not just trust in them the when I make the initial decision.
I truly want to get in my car and just drive away.
PS. I hate rainy days.

Day 36 of Unemployed Living

I applied for jobs today at dive shops in Hawaii, St.Croix and Florida. I feel like I need to get away and this type of job would be fun and relaxed.

The other day I had a call back to a catering position in FL, but I never called them back. I talked myself out of it.

I had a call back to a company called FL Dream Homes. It was in Kissimmee, FL. I don't want to live there, but I really liked that company and the owner. I really want the Gulf Coast.

I applied to jobs here in MD, but nothing that would make me happy.

What do I want? Twenty minutes of staring at those four words, I've figured this much...

I want to live at the beach, where it is warm everyday. I want a job that doesn't tie me to a desk and allows me to be creative. Also, Lucy needs to be allowed to come to work, sometimes. 

This post is depressing. Here is a video of Lucy snoring. She makes me smile.

I Made A Change...

Whelp, I indeed made a change as the title of this post says. I quit my hated job on October 10th.
I am so happy that I am not stuck behind that computer surrounded by those vulture-esque, miserable, ungrateful people. (FYI. I am talking about the individuals in upper management, that sit in their offices and dictate and micro-manage "their associates," during the 10 hours a week they "work." Not disgruntle, I'm only speaking the truth!) 
I sit home on this Saturday evening and search for the millionth time, what to do with my life. I found nothing and here I am.
I'm rather angry. I am angry with how everything panned out for me. I really miss my life 4 years ago. I need to let it go because it's gone and never going to be like that again.
All my facebook friends (they are not actually my friends, more like acquaintances, I doubt I would even say hello to 95% of them in a store) are getting married, having kids, buying houses, living their fun, fantastic lives... Here I sit on Saturday night, in my parents home, looking for what I should do with my life. My 28 year old, unmarried, child-less (rare nowadays,) career-less, home-less, goal-less, pathetic life.
Back to google.

Changes

Every day sucks. I need something to change.

Can you read this?

I made my blog private, or should I say, invite only with the guest list being less then five.
So I ask, can you read this?